o be honest, life as a new realtor is beyond stressful. I hear people around me saying, "You’re doing great!" or "You’ll be fine!"—and while I appreciate it, I can’t help but feel the pressure mounting behind the scenes. My mind is constantly racing, filled with self-doubt: "What have I done? Why am I doing this? Will I even succeed?"

On the surface, my activity levels are off the charts. I’m pushing myself harder than I ever have, juggling everything from marketing to meetings to follow-ups. Every month, the business fees creep higher—training, conferences, networking events, lunches with leads—and I’m always eyeing the cost of running things. Yet, despite the hustle, I sometimes feel like the annoying person trying to stay top-of-mind. That little voice whispers, "Maybe you’re being too much."

But I can’t afford to let that kill my spirit. I’m unconventional, not part of a larger team, and still learning. This journey is supposed to be a marathon, not a sprint, but I’m frustrated when I don’t feel supported by certain family members. My husband reassures me, "They’ll see you grow, and then they’ll come around." He’s probably right, but it doesn’t change how I feel in the moment.

Right now, I’m a little fish in a big pond. I’m not drowning, but success feels far away. Two sales in five months…OMG. It’s not what I expected, but I’ll keep swimming.

Then there’s the rollercoaster of emotions. One minute, people are telling me how hard I’m working, how I need to slow down, relax, take a break. We’ve talked about it before—about the importance of taking breaks. But nope, no breaks for me. I’ve got my foot on the gas, and I refuse to let up.

The thing is, I’ve got goals. Big ones. Personal and professional. And the more I sit around feeling unproductive, the more I say, “F**k it, I’m just going to work harder.” I know that I am the business, and without strong family support from my extended circle, I shouldn’t be struggling as much as I am. But that’s not going to stop me. If it’s not happening now, I’ll just keep pushing until it does.

I’ve come to realize that the only way forward is to hustle. I’ll work even harder because I will hit my goals. The stress, the sleepless nights, the endless rollercoaster—it’s all part of the ride. Even though this journey is testing every ounce of my patience and willpower, I know it’ll be worth it in the end.

So, no breaks, no slowing down. I’ll keep moving forward. Success may be a long way off, but I’ll get there.

Signed,
The little fish, doing a backstroke with one fin tied behind my back… and yeah, still can’t see land yet, but I’m swimming! 🐠